Disappointed but more Determined

Since January 1st, 2014 I’ve been on a journey to change my health. For at least the last 15 years of my life I’ve been obese and have never been in really good shape or had healthy eating habits. I’ve been keeping sort of a journal for myself at My Health Journey if you’re interested in seeing how the journey has been up to this point. This post is going to focus on my right now.

We left for vacation on the 26th of July. On that day I was three pounds away from my goal of 178 lbs for my weight. Why that random seeming number? Two reasons. On New Years 2014 I started a weight loss challenge on Facebook. At that time I weighed 258 lbs. 178 lbs would mean a total loss, since starting that competition, of 80 lbs. The other, and more important to me, reason is that weight will put me at a BMI (Body Mass Index) of under 25. That means that I will no longer be classified as over weight. Realizing that BMI is just a simple calculation based on height and weight I’m not holding it as my Bible, but it seemed like a great goal to have.

While we were away on vacation I had a setback. I started out really well eating wise, but as the vacation went on I ended up moving away from all the good habits I had built for myself over the past number of months. We also led a fairly hectic schedule while we were away so I didn’t get as much running in as I wanted to while we were gone.

Running has become a favourite exercise of mine. I usually go early in the morning before anyone else in the house is awake. It seems to start my day on a positive note and I get to enjoy nature at a peaceful point with no other thoughts in my head except what is going on around me.

Based on where I was when we left and the average weight loss I had been having each week, I really should have come home from vacation at my goal. What a great way that would have been to start back into everyday life. Wednesdays are my personal weigh in day, so when I weighed myself this morning I am at 184 lbs. Three pounds higher than when I last weighed in two weeks ago. I’ve been receiving lots of encouragement from friends and family that three pounds gained over vacation is nothing to worry about which is great, and really I know it’s not that big a deal. But when I was that close to my goal, and I’ve gone so long with my good habits, I was disappointed in myself for not sticking through while away.

Obviously I’m not going to let this setback really get me down. I did have a couple weeks during these last seven months where I went up in weight, but I really thought I was past that. This vacation has really made me aware that this is going to be a life long battle that I’m on. It’s way to easy to slip back into bad eating and exercise habits. But with this behind me I’m back on track. I’ve ran three of the last four mornings and my eating is mostly back on track.

Starting today I’m more determined than ever to see this through. I’m going to hit my goal in the very near future and be ever aware that I can’t go back to where I was last year.

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